I’m finally back home. I took a week after I finished finals to go visit family (and attend my nephew’s 1st birthday party, which was a lot of fun. That kid has a great arm - when he gets a little older I’ll have to start recruiting him for Tulane Baseball…)
When I got back I needed to catch up on the fansubs for the shows I’m following this season. Now that my Windows machine is up and running, I decided to check out uTorrent. I’ve heard that it is the best client out there, but since it isn’t Mac or Linux capable I hadn’t had a chance to check it out.
I’ve got a speedy connection, and for a long time Azureus ripped along quite satisfactorily. Something happened when they became Vuze, though, and my download speeds went south. I’d still max out my upload, but I was averaging about 40 kB/s down per file no matter how well seeded a torrent was. If I had several going, I’d very rarely break 100 kB/s total. I tweaked every option I could, and was beginning to suspect my ISP was bandwidth-throttling (although it would be odd to limit downloads instead of uploads…)
I installed uTorrent and started grabbing the torrents for the series I’d missed while I was away. By the time I’d grabbed the third one I realized that the first two were already finished! Granted, they were relatively fresh and well seeded, but that was a new record for me. I played around a bit and seemed to max out at about 1.5mB/s. Swell.
I’m averaging about 2.5 minutes to download a full episode right now. That’s blazing fast. My upload is the same under uTorrent as it was under Azureus - about 130kB/s. That means about half an hour until I’m at a 1:1 ratio. I generally seed for a lot longer anyway, which brings up an interesting moral dilemma.
I’ve been through the whole ‘fansubs = stealing’ argument many times before. I’ll admit that I’m a thief. Any excuses I can provide are just ways of justifying my actions, and trying to squeeze some gray out of a black and white issue. That doesn’t work, which is why I admit what I’m doing is stealing.
Still, I’ve been able to sleep at night.
For one, I’m not going to be arrested for downloading content that isn’t licensed in the US, and many times never will be.
Few people read this blog, and only a small fraction of those readers actually respect my opinion enough to check out a series I really like. Still, I’d like to delude myself into thinking that my cheerleading for a series like Sola had some small impact in getting it licensed here in the US (if BV-USA will ever deliver, that is). If Myself, Yourself were to get licensed I’d take it as a personal victory, since I’m pretty much alone on that one.
I haven’t counted the DVDs, but I’d estimate that my collection is well over 500 disks now. A while back I posted a photo of my anime DVD cabinet, and that’s now spilled over to almost entirely fill another one. Granted, I’ve bought a lot of them during various fire sales, but I’d estimate that I’ve spent at least $10,000 on anime DVDs. (Writing it down like that makes me realize what an expensive hobby it is - I’ve probably only spent half of that on my brewery, and only my firearms collection can top it money-wise.)
I don’t buy figurines, or other related merchandise (well, I have bought quite a few OSTs…), but I’d put my DVD collection up against any Otaku out there and would expect to come out on top almost every time.
I’ve been able to justify watching fansubs by claiming I support the industry by buying DVDs. I’ve even justified grabbing fansubs for licensed series - when I got caught up in Welcome to the NHK and realized it was on the ADV ‘maybe’ list I found a torrent and grabbed it. I’m still buying all of the disks the day they come out, so ‘no harm no foul’, right?
Maybe not.
If fansubs are driving the US anime distributors out of business, then I’ve probably been one of their worst enemies despite being one of their best customers.
Over the last year I’ve relegated my Mac-mini to being a seeding box. I just opened up Azureus and looked at the statistics. Since the last time I re-booted the machine it has been up for 249 days. During that time, I’ve downloaded over 100 GB worth of fansubs. During that same time I’ve uploaded over 1.4 TB of the same, since I’m constantly seeding.
I’d never thought about this before - since I had the bandwidth, I just assumed it was common courtesy to seed. Other than donations, this was another way to help out the fansub groups and show them some appreciation, I thought.
I’ve been able to justify my behavior because I buy the DVDs once they are licensed. But for every copy of a fansubbed series I’ve downloaded, I’ve provided over eight more copies to others. Are they doing the same as me, and buying the series when it finally gets released? Probably not.
I suppose I could say that if that’s the case they’d have never bought it anyway, and thus aren’t taking any profits from the US distributors. That rings hollow, though, and makes me feel pretty shitty inside.
I felt OK about what I was doing and hadn’t given any deep thought until now.
Did I kill Geneon? Did I drive ADV to the straights they are in now?
Not by myself, but I surely contributed. With a well intentioned smile I drove my little knife just as deeply into their backs as everyone else did.
The realist in me can shrug off this guilt - it’s survival of the fittest, and the outdated business model these companies were following was doomed to an evolutionary dead-end. When a fansub group consisting of a few college kids can provide a superior product in days rather than the months or years it would take an established company to provide a lesser product the writing is on the wall. Adapt or die.
It’s a seachange, and we’re only seeing the beginning. I don’t know where we’ll be in five years, but I know that it will be better for both the fans and the creators in the end, and we’ll find a balance.
Along the way, though, I hurt those who gave me the most, and I’m sorry.
I’m still going to be downloading fansubs for now, but maybe I’ll just go for a 1:1 ratio. Call it a temporary bandage for my guilt.
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